Monthly Archives: July 2011

Brain Dump

Spoke to Dad on the phone earlier.  He filled me in on the situation with my sis, D.  Despite having been discharged from hospital into the care of my parents, she is still far from well.  Dad told me this evening that D was still suffering from sickness when they allowed her out – she is diabetic for goodness sake!!!  Whilst my sister has ‘form’ for hiding how unwell she is in order to be discharged, I find it incomprehensible that a woman who was so weak she needed a wheelchair to leave hospital could be allowed home.  Well, not home exactly, but to the house of my mother (pensioner who has not been the same since her stroke) and father (pensioner with caring responsibility for his wife, and own share of health problems).  C’mon!  In what universe is that anywhere near logical?!?

(Pause for breath…)

Okay, here is a potted run-down of my concerns for my family.

D (sis) – type 1 diabetic since age 11, now has sight problems, digestive issues, kidney problems, mobility issues (due to being as weak ‘as a rasher of wind’ – to quote Dad).  No-one to rely on to care for her except my parents, thus –

Mum – had stroke over 5 years ago, still has short term memory problems and slight speech issues.  Many practical tasks are harder than they used to be, she tires easily and gets frustrated quickly.  She and D used to have a good, mutually supportive relationship, this has suffered due to their respective deterioration in health.

Dad – see above!!!  D and Mum are both pretty much dependent on Dad for many things, and he is only one person.  Being only human himself, this wears him out and I think he feels very alone in all this.

I live quite a distance away can only really support with words on the phone, texts and the odd card.  I would go home tomorrow, if I thought it would help, but I do not think there is much I can do.  As Dad said, he is there, and there is not much he feels HE can do!  Not only that, but I start my new job next week so that fills much of my focus at the moment, as does the fact that I am trying to negotiate the next step for the allotment project and look into furthering my counselling training.  It may sound odd, but I do feel a little guilty/selfish that I am able to get on with my life when others that are dear to me are struggling so badly.

I really do covet your prayers of support for my family.  None of them have any faith in God, that I know of anyway, and I cannot begin to comprehend how hellish things must be.  As for me, I have this odd kind of calm.  Sometimes, when I think about it, the knowledge overwhelms me and I cry or, alternatively, get very angry indeed.  Not sure of the relative merits of those reactions, but there they are.

Could also do with a Christian fellowship nearby that I can entrust all these concerns to.  Despite having been in our present home approx 5 years now, I still feel a little rootless in terms of my Christian family.  I realise how privileged I was in Swansea, and I honestly do not think I will see support like that again – perhaps cos I will never need support like that again (God willing).  That said, a sense of belonging would be good – whether that means that I need to get properly rooted where I am, or find another place of worship, or…?  Dunno really, just know that there are some big holes in the place where good, mutually supportive Christian friends should be.

Phew.  Brain dump over now.  Think it may be time for bed.  Praise God for a lovely hubby, a fab family by marriage and kitties who purrrrrrrr!

Thanks and another prayer request

Firstly, thanks to those of you who followed the link on my previous post.  I let Millie’s mum know I had linked her, and she noticed that a number of people had come to her blog from here.  Well done people!

Also, another prayer request for those of you who are so inclined.  This time it my sister, Denise, who is in need.  She has been suffering from the effects of long term diabetes for a while now.  Her eyesight is suffering, as are her feet and digestive system.  The most recent problems have been her kidneys and blood pressure.  The former have been found to be functioning at only about 20 percent efficiency and the latter is so low that she was admitted to hospital as an inpatient yesterday (the kidney issue also being a big reason for this admission).

I was on the phone to Dad earlier tonight.  It is hard for him as Mum needs his support too, since she has not been entirely well since her stroke in 2005.  My father is the kind of person who likes to fix things, which is totally understandable, but this kind of situation just leaves him feeling utterly helpless.  Mum is able to be more pragmatic these days, but I feel that this may actually increase Dad’s sense of being alone in dealing with the issues of failing health in those he cares about.

I must admit to feeling helpless too.  I am approx 200 miles away from my folks and even if I were to have the time and freedom to shoot down to Dorset, I know that I would only be in the way.  My Dad was too kind to say this in so many words, but we both knew what we meant!

So please, dear friends, add my family to your prayers.  Thanks

P.S.  I have a medical assessment for my new job on Thursday at 9.30am.  I know it is probably only routine but I tend to be twitchy about being asked about my medical history.  If you could add this to your list of prayers too, I would be very grateful.  Ta! 🙂

Please read and pray

Have added a new link to the blogroll here.  Please take some time to visit the blog.

The blogger and her husband are extremely dear to me, two of the most brilliant people I know.  Sadly, their younger daughter has been diagnosed with a very aggressive form of cancer which has meant that the three of them are currently in the  US in order  for her to receive specialist treatment, leaving the elder daughter back in the UK with grandparents.

Their story is one of both sadness, humour and extreme courage on the part of all the family.  PLEASE take the time to visit and say a prayer for them all.  I am sure messages of support would also be much appreciated.  Thanks WibFolk.