Got sent home from work today. Not well enough to do the job, at least for the moment…maybe longer.
This illness is something that I would like to relegate firmly to the past. Having had around three major recurring episodes over the last 18 years or so, I am beginning to think that this is not really going to happen. This is hard to take, especially as it has been about 8 years since I last had real problems. I even came off a particular form of most hated meds about this time last year. It felt like a milestone at the time, now it just seems like a false dawn. Sigh.
Sometimes the ‘I will beat this’ attitude only goes so far. There comes a point, in some situations, where one needs to face the fact that the problem in question may never fully go away. It may recede and recur and, life being a naturally cyclical thing, there may be nothing one can do to change this. It is a question of adjusting and endeavouring to ensure that the downturns of the cycle do not become disasterous. Still, it is very humbling, and incredibly galling, to think that this particular Achilles Heel may be with me for life.
Still, I bought a bike off e-bay the other day, so not all cycles are bad 😉